Dear God ,
I know it’s okay to cry , cuz you know , weeping endures for the night ……….. but my heart is too weak for any more loss ! Around this time last year , my father bade this world farewell . He was a good man according to the stories I hear about him, I just never got the chance to know him. Now that’s now even the issue , I lost so many people , and so much stuff right after his death …….. my heart froze.
I am afraid of loss , I hate rejection – and loss of anything translates to rejection for me always. So today I allowed myself to feel all my feels . I allowed myself to cry , to be and to live . I listened to this song and it summarized my feels so I thought I would share it here. …….
“I got problems
And I’ll be the first to call them out
Yeah, I get lonely
Cuz lately friends don’t stick around
But I keep my hopes up
Cuz that’s the one thing I can control
I don’t fill my mind with petty lies
I let that go
I don’t fill my mind with petty lies
Let that go
And all…the troubles in my life won’t bring me down
And all…the struggles in my life they teach me how
How I’m perfectly imperfect
And when it hurts, I just remember there’s a purpose
So I’ll cry today, smile tomorrow
I cry today, smile tomorrow
And those nights, when I’m all alone
Feeling defeated, and beaten, abandoned, and far from home
I sit in silence on the sidelines as the world moves on
With puzzled pieces in my palms, wondering what the hell I did wrong
So I’ll cry today, smile tomorrow
I cry today, smile tomorrow”
May you allow yourself to feel the feels this month, My you get in touch with yourself , May you face the pain .
Wow,
This was meant for my soul too.
Thank u
Hugs on the way!
May Dad Rest in Peace
Sending you love, warmth and Ugandan sunshine. As the years go by, we adopt coping mechanisms which aren’t that helpful too. Its a pain and loss that is indescribable and not shareable. It reminds you of all that is not right. And as you hope, I will continue to pray for comfort and strength in this time that only hope exists
Why is your blog calling me anonymous?
Sending you love, warmth and Ugandan sunshine. As the years go by, we adopt coping mechanisms which aren’t that helpful too. Its a pain and loss that is indescribable and not shareable. It reminds you of all that is not right. And as you hope, I will continue to pray for comfort and strength in this time that only hope exists
Ah Penelope may grace overwhelm you. May you be surrounded like as a hen would cover its young under its feathers.
Warm, warm hugs Penny!